The Silence of My Voice

No matter how expensive make-up you might use, and however expensive a camera might click your face, it's not going to change the fact that beneath all that cake is a woman who could never be anybody's, who could never become what he wanted her to, what people wanted her to. Stop pitying yourself. You're not the only one falling sick and staying up to work your designs. Go gulp a fucking medicine, eat, and get back to work. Smoke's only going to kill you, not give you peace. Hard truth much?  For the complete insecure bitch that you're inside, nobody's going to love you from the outside. Nobody hangs around for a damaged good, or even wait for it to be fixed. Learn to be your own person.  YOU are selfish. Pathetically selfish. All you want is love from people without giving it a thought what you're giving in return to them. You only screw relationships, let alone somebody else.  People change. Face it. You haven't been the same either. Stop bo...

What one needs to comprehend is that not everyone is hard-hearted. Yeah, I know, one of the look-who's-talking moments. College has made me cross an entire diversity of people. Like biological diversities, Fungi, Protesta, Bacteria etc? Yeah, that. Okay too sleep-deprived so I'm allowed to talk crap. Don't pay attention to my crap.  Where was I? Yeah. So apparently not everyone is what they seem. Everyone? Ha! Who am I kidding?  NOBODY is what they seem. Everyone here is a stud, number 1.  People have HUGE egos. With of course, huge attitude issues. Some are SO sweet, and equally SO fake, and equally SO piling, that I want to hit right in their faces. People are more afraid than a pre-school child. Some have immense love around, so much that it hurts. And some they barely smile. The ones who seem most extrovert and loud and sociable, are the most insecure.  All I'm trying to say is that I discovered, I might not be that much of a World-Hater as I thought I was. ...

I've been realising that I'm lately using the word anticipation a lot in life. Maybe because anticipation and surprises, both in a good and a bad way, are what happening in my life. For someone like me who's obnoxiously egoistic, and unjust, and judgemental 24*7, I have been surprised and disappointed by people too often till the extent of extremities.  But you know what they say, "Good things always come in threes." And so do, Pritish, Shekhar and Sharnay.  Know that bro-shit? Yeah, that.  To be honest, my first impression of these three wasn't so good. I mean, like really. I ACTUALLY thought the three to be gays together (Please don't kill me, you three.). =P But as it goes, "Buddies who roll together, stay together." Yeah, you know exactly what I mean.  Pritish, the over-protective kid, the dirty jokes partner. Superlatively concerned about everything. Shekhar, the kid in itself. The sweetest out of all. The jolly one in each gro...