Blogmas 2020 Day Twelve: Holly

Workplaces all over the world are dreadfully condemnatory, and discriminatory. And, at times blindly run, as well. What dictates us to mostly continue dwell there is either love for what we do, or necessity. I've followed suit to the prior, but the latter must be a load of pants.

Like I said here yesterday. Ambition. There's a price to pay to for indulging in it. And, that price is your independence. When you rise from the ground up, there's a lot to ameliorate from being zealous, because you gain more than what you had. When you already have a cushion to launch off of, you're in the position to be enriched by others' ambitions. Like I said yesterday, need because of greed is ambition, and the price of that is your independence. Need because of need is helplessness, and this time, peace is the price to pay. And, with your peace as the price to pay, the one thing you're never able to do is surround yourself with people who would share a quid pro quo with you, where growth is the bottom line. So, even when you're trying hard enough to outline a geography that stands for every piece of your belief, you can't. Then you end up either learning the dirty game, and believing it the only way to be, or you play the dirty game long enough to start loving it.

It takes a third, a very special, and stubborn, and persevering, and an honest kind to have the gall to stand through that dirty game, and still keep your hands clean, and more so your conscience.
We're all a different tone of tenacious. Some deeper than the others. And, ignominy is something everyone is subjected to at some point, which is mostly alright, because we can take care of our own selves, at the very least. What one can never tolerate is the same happening to someone we love. Because, there's something to be said about feeling someone else's pain more acutely than they do.

I wish someone gave a handbook early enough in life for how to be a good person; your own person. I wish even harder that someone taught us, to unaffectedly stay that way when we were subjected to people who walk a path opposite to what we believe in. I found this handbook by watching my parents.
As a kid, you tend to question the universe a lot why it presented snags for these two people, particularly. As a teen, you question them about shoving the dirt back where it's coming from.
As an adult, you understand they were only doing this to bolster your roots. Funny thing, parents.

Not everything is always rosy for everyone. It would be dim to entertain such a thought.
And, we've all hit rock bottom. Sure, it's dingy down there. But the best part is that after it, there's no place else to go but up. Remember that.

More tomorrow. Until then.

Artist: Illo

Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas,
A.