BlogMas 2018 Day Twenty Two - When?

Don't obliterate the memory of you being someone you'll never again be. The smallest of things have you gaping wide open, feeling all that air gush through you. But don't forget the person you were when you won something for the first time, no matter how significant or not it was.

When you realised what you were meant to be doing with your life.

When you felt giddy from finally realising what made you passionate about something.

When you had your first kiss. When you slept next to someone for the first time.

When you were there holding your best friends' hair back while they threw up all the remnants of all their heartbreaks ever.

When no one ever told you why you had to go through with certain things; just that you had to.

When you knew you were about the make a wrong decision, but you made it anyway cause you wanted some grave mistakes in your story to be told.

When you promised yourself to never post that poem ever for the world to read, but you did it anyway 'cause not sharing it with anyone made you feel lonely.

When you were so tired, you missed your stop on the train and ended up paying extra for the cab.

When you realised that someone actually depended on your existence to help them through their tough days.

When you realised you'd been thrown out of someone's life, just that you were never told of it.

When you realise you're always going to be passing through phases in life, and your hack from the last time of going through the same phase again, somehow always never works.

When you realised that even though everything is falling apart and crumbling right around you, you still have to get up the next day, make some coffee, and get cracking for the day.

When you realised the moment when it was the last of seeing someone for the rest of your life.

When you realised that strangers happen to be the best listeners. Ever.

When you realise you're probably never coming back home.

When you realised for the first time, what being home to one another feels like.

When you realised the moment you knew you weren't going to stay strong enough anymore and you'd soon be a goner for the person standing right in front of you.

When you realised, waiting on for your cab on the sidewalk, that that was the best date of your life.

When you realised that all of us have the courage to admit that we can't deal with everything.

When you realise that no one else in life is going to refer to you with that nickname again.

When you realise the moment when it's the last you'd be seeing the back of someone. Or the front.

When you realise the next few days are going to change the rest of your life.

When you realise that loyalty and friendship can help almost any relationship sail. Almost.

When you realise you're never going to feel this warm and fuzzy ever. And it wasn't the alcohol.

When you realise the exact moment you've stopped giving a flying damn.

When you realise you're probably never going to have winters in a year again.

When you realise that accepting your weaknesses, only just pushed you a few steps further in life.

When you realised sharing vulnerabilities is such a novelty.

When you realised that you're not going to have any motive to wake up the next morning. Yet you still do so.

When you realise standing at the airport arrival gate, you're going to detest airports for the rest of your life.

When....

Until then.

AlBoardman

Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas.

A.